If I were the sky
I’d always be high
But the world would drown in rain
And every day it’d begin again
If I were the ocean I couldn’t drown
The sinking feeling wouldn’t stay around
If I were a mountain I could stand tall
At the edge of it all
I wouldn’t fall
If I were a tree I’d be happy just to be
My roots would drink from the ground
And I’d have all the wisdom the forest has found
If I were silence I wouldn’t need to speak
I wouldn’t have to explain why this runs so deep
Why each time I am back on my feet
The rug is pulled out from underneath me
If I were the sky, there’d be no constant question
No strangled suggestion
Why why why
If I were the ocean I could be calm one minute and hell the next
And no one would even need to guess
They’d accept
the madness like it was meant to be
I’d hug the shore if I were the sea
Human,
I watch the ocean, the sky, the tree
Wishing
Wishing
Wishing
I wasn’t me
Because it’s harder than the mountain’s side
And more dangerous than the tide
my head is buried in the ground so I can hide
Dirt covers my eyes
And is encrusted in my fingernails
All I can see is the ways in which I fail
My tears are salt streams drying on my face
And my heart is a well that’s been overflowing for days
I am a part of the place
that I live in
I am human, scars on my skin
All I want is to be home
And to be safe
To rid myself of these heavy days
The struggle locks me up in chains
The more I try to get free
The more I am tangled in my own dark memory
All I want is to be home
To find the key
That opens the door to peace
Wish it was that easy
In my dreams I am a warrior
Fierce
I take the torment in my stride
And my sword glows with pride
When I sleep I can cry
Without having to lie
And d say “it’s nothing, I’m fine.”
I can get high
Without coming down
But awake I am lost
And I don’t know where to look
To be found
Am I meant to do all the searching for healing
Myself?
I need help
But no one knows how
Oh how I wish I were a cloud
Or somebody else
Someone who doesn’t have a voice in her brain
insisting she’s insane
Someone with no knowledge of pain
That’s what I feel today
Like I want to fly away
Fiction This 